Prayer at 4 A.M.

Prayer at 4 A.M.

Forgive yourself:
For trying to solve problems you can’t name
For wishing not to fail when that is fate;
For in the end your best must fail
Forgive the universe for its indifference
You’re very small and can’t imagine
How immensely small you are

Forgive yourself:
For not loving many who might love you
For forgetting wanting can become an illness
For trying and failing to please people;
You’re supposed to do it but it doesn’t work
For wanting in age what’s not there in youth
For hating those who prefer death to life
For not confronting them

Forgive yourself:
For not proving capable
For never turning wise
History works hard to brand you a fool

Forgive yourself:
For accepting what you are and
So much you are not
For not wanting to forgive
Amen